Thursday, January 17, 2008

update

Not dead yet. Have been sick and nursing a sick turnip. Is it wrong to find it completely adorable that when he pukes he says "I choke!" Heartbreaking but adorable. He was so sick he could only utter three words "mine" "no" and "stop". I thought at least he is in his happy place. Right now he is much better. He is beating Gill with a Wii game saying "I watch this daddy".

I beat guitar hero on easy. My new goal is to play all the songs on easy till I get five stars. Im just not ready to add the blue key yet.

I'd gotten my brain age down to 26. After the turnip's illness, it is back up to 34. I guess it's good it's out of the 40s.

I think I might be battling with clinical depression. Not the gun to your head kind. The "what the hell is the point of getting out of bed ever?" kind. I lost my adderall prescription which kind of complicates things.

Depression could also be complicated by the fact that Elmo's world, which used to be a source of comfort for my baby, now sends him into a flying rage that makes me fear for my safety.

You know it's a bad week when you are getting messages like "don't call me back if you are still sick...it's that bad." and yet you are giddy to go to work anyway.

11 comments:

Canada said...

I hope everyone feels better soon. I've missed you!

luckybuzz said...

Aw, sorry the Turnip is sick and you're depressed. I feel you on the not wanting to get out of bed. Hope everyone feels better soon. :)

Ash said...

I'm working on guitar hero 3 medium level. DAMN THE BLUE BUTTON! DAMN IT ALL TO HELL!

DO YOU HEAR ME BLUE BUTTON? YOU ARE DEAD TO ME!

Hope you are feeling better.

Jenny Ryan said...

So sorry you've been feeling so bad lately. :( I've missed you too.

Lucy said...

Sista-Turnip's puking words are pretty damned cute. I'm sorry you're going through all of this--puke and depression and lack of aderall. The puke is bad enough (it's been puktastic week here too). I'm only a call away baby. Give ME a reason to get away from THESE people.

gretty said...

You know I love you guys, but I probably won't be over until all the germs are safely dead! That wii contoller must be a festering mass ;)

Crawlspace said...

I thought it was better to have an older brain, because an older brain would be wiser and no more useless trivia and be extra good at crossword puzzles and telling kids to get off of lawns...

20 year old brains are all about booze and sex and video games, which are also cool.

Xavier Onassis said...

I was beginning to worry about you.

My 14 yo daughter got Guitar Hero for Christmas. I told her if she practices and gets really good, maybe I'll break out my congas and we could play a duet.

"DAAaaad! Rock guitar and hippy drums do not go together!!"

So I played her some Santana.

"That doesn't count!"

Get well soon.

ZigZagMan said...

I'm waiting for them to come out with bagpipe hero!! :)

Glad your feeling almost human again buddy!

Lisa said...

Sending you lots of love, light and healing. I struggle with the depression issue too, Buddy.

We're all here hoping you'll be feeling better soon (and no puking from anyone allowed!)

HUGS!

The Mistress of the Dark said...

Oh feel better. This time of year is no good for most people. Try to think spring even though it's 500 below outside.

Miss ya.